Pictures from our 2nd Christmas

I'm a little behind in posting pictures for obvious reasons but here are some pictures from a few weeks ago when Nana and Aunt Heather met Mason for the 1st time!!

Update

Last Thursday I went in for my 2nd operation since Mason has been born. The doctor went in thinking that she would be fixing the tear in my uterus but, like everything else since the birth, it got a little more complicated. While they didn't find a tear, they did find a rather large mass on my uterus which they removed along with one of my fallopian tubes that had healed incorrectly. They sent the mass off to a pathologist for testing and that ended up being an interesting find. I was in so much pain yesterday at the doctor that I really didn't grasp everything that she was telling me but from what I remember, the mass was caused by an infection of my abdominal cavity. The infection itself was caused by some leaking of amniotic fluid before/during/ or after Masons birth. So with that said, we are on another round of antibiotics and hoping this will be the end. From what I can tell is I get better with the antibiotics and then when I'm finished with the medication the infection flares up again. We are hoping to control it this time because my next option is a hysterectomy and I DO NOT want another surgery. Only time will tell what goes on from here. Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes from everyone. I love you all!

One Complication After Another

It's a good thing that Mr Mason is so darn cute because having him has been a beating on my body. After the c-section, infection, DNC, two hospital admissions, I was finally starting to feel a little better last week. On Friday I started to have a nagging pain on my left side that was uncomfortable but quickly got worse. On Sunday I could barely walk without being in horrible pain. Finally yesterday I went to the doctor and she sent me for an ultrasound. They found that I have a tear in my uterus that they believe is what is causing my pain. There is no way to know when or how the tear happened but the fact is that it's there and now needs to be fixed. I was set up to have an MRI this afternoon but the doctor canceled it since either way she wanted to go in and fix the tear. So Thursday, I will have ANOTHER operation, hopefully the last one, to fix everything that needs to be fixed.

Like I said, good thing Mason is good and cute :)

Our Evening with Family

Matt, Emily and Eden came down from Kansas this weekend to spend time with us and meet Mr Mason. We so enjoyed spending time with them and Ms Eden is just as sweet as she can be!! I think her and Mason might be partners in crime when they get older.

Mason's First Bath!

Last night we were finally able to give Mason a real bath vs a sponge bath that he has been getting. I think he actually enjoyed it once he got in there even though it only lasted a few minutes. He did not like getting out however. It was cold in the house!!!

It Might be the Hormones But........

As I sit here listening to my sweet girls playing nicely in the other room and my son in his swing sleeping peacefully, I cannot help but get a little teary-eyed. How in the world did I get so lucky??

A little backstory. When I was younger, I honestly never thought I would get married. I had several very awkward teenage years and was never really comfortable in my own skin. After I stopped dancing my sophomore year I gained a lot of weight (or what I thought was a lot of weight) and began to dislike my self and the way I looked. I only had one real boyfriend and even that only lasted 6 months. I went through depression which I hid very very well but didn't deal with it in a healthy manner. Moving forward several years, I meet Ryan, again. Honestly, when I saw him at my sisters wedding I thought he was adorable but didn't think he would have anything to do with me. You see, I've known Ryan since I was in 5th grade. He was 2 grades above me so more than likely never thought anything of me except of me being his best friends girlfriends sister (did you get all that!). Little did I know that a week after my sisters wedding he asked her husband if I was available. Most of you know the story from here.

My point in sharing this sad part of my life is partly the hormones but also to share how far I've come in my life. I've gone from this unhappy teenager who had such little self confidence in herself to this wife of an amazing man, and a mother of 3 of the most adorable kids ever possible (I'm biased). Over the last two weeks I keep finding myself in the most odd places (at lunch at Chipotle for one) getting teary-eyed when looking at my family. I was so lucky to have found my soul mate and then was blessed again with my beautiful little girls. Then 2 weeks ago, God blessed me again with this amazing little baby boy. I think all along, as it is written, that he had a plan for me. Everything that I went through, good and bad, made me the person I am today.

Perhaps all of this is too much information but as I said, the hormones have made me one sappy mommy! I just felt like sharing how happy I am, I want to shout it from the rooftops!! Oh and I will stress that I was this happy before Mason came along, but he completes our family that I never thought was incomplete until he arrived.

I made a blog book for the 2009 year and thought this would be a nice post to have in my 2010 book so my kids can look back when they are older and see how happy they made me. I apologize if I have bored you all :)

Happy New Year!

No resolutions for me this year since I never stick with them. I just plan to continue striving to be the best wife, mom, friend, daughter, sister that I can possibly be. 2009 was such an amazing year, I couldn't have asked for anything better. Now I look forward to 2010 with my wonderful husband, two beautiful girls, and my handsome little man!